Monday afternoon I had lunch with old friend. She is from Vienna in the past lived in Amsterdam for a while..We werent hanging then,too busy with consuming large quantities of hashish..to even notice eachother..She kicked her addiction,I kicked mine. (well sorta...what a junkie you are Andrea telling lies huh? Aw shut up,only in the evening some minor minor smoking consumption..yeah tell that to your self.Well I am since this is my verbal crapcorner I am yakking to me.).She moved back to Vienna I popped out a coupla kids..

Got in touch through Internet...Now when she is travelling she makes pitstops in Amsterdam,and we do lunch..I like her..Think she is funny and intelligent..We met at our old hangout;a local coffeeshop.

Another friend was there too..Kreet..She is from Estonia...Comes back every so often...Stays in Amsterdam too long...does nothing but drugs...I always thought (hoe naief) she only did weed and hash..Today I saw her and her face was completly covered in huge boils..pimples or whatever you wanna call it...She was ignoring me , i said hey lets talk..she said:....murmle..nothing ..

Later on whilst having lunch I mentioned to the lady from Vienna,what a strange situation it was back at the shop..She said: Kreet,kreet is on heroin...She is out there,she looks like shit and really should be put away ,taken from Amterdam...Strange thing was..that years ago,she was in a state which resembled the state she s in today.She then moved back to Estonia got her life on track and became a collegestudent.....Back then it was the old boyfriend who mentioned heroin...How can it be,that with someone so close im not capable of recognising addiction..?

My sister said,dont let her in to your life anymore...Vienna lady said something likewise....I do feel bad...Yeah I know the friendship is over,the situation back in the coffeeshop sorta confirmed what I allready knew..Still it hurts...A double loss..The loss of a friend (who is really great fun when she is sober,or clean) and the loss of somebody to a substance bigger then life...