Uhm..Ok short update..in bad bad bad english ...

-Yesterday agitated because of checkoutchick at the LIDL..who the week before didnt trusted us,and re-weighted the vedgies and fruits...to see if we put a lower price tag on the food...Yesterday she didnt do that and I was like:GRRRRRRR!!!!!!! (get it)

-A week ago I decited to go to some stores and I ran into old familiar face from the past,one whom I never liked..I looked at him and turned my back grabbed bike..And was very happy..

-Yesterday afternoon..My kid wanted to play with schoolfriend at friends home located in posh area  in ''Oud Zuid'' Amsterdam..Due to the lack of transport from the kids mom,I  biked along,and when I dropped her off and headed home..I saw old japanese restaurant where I once had dinner with  guy who I had major major crush on..Sight of the restaurant..left me COLD....Yay..demons of the past  are gone..Heart is finaly healed 100% ,out of my system...I realised at once how much time I wasted with mourning..ANd how much I loved my man and kids.

-Also some days back my sister and I had bagels at ''Bagels and Beans''..I had one with creamcheese and avocado...Jeesh what a sad place...Everything was in english..and the chick who served us,was foreign too..When we placed our orders..She tried to make us speak the lingo of the place..Like:''Do you want your bagel :Plain or with sesame,etc..But just the word :Plain and just that whole englsih   (yes it is supposed to be written like that)vibe set both my sister and I into a :we only speak Dutch mode..Which was cool...(why on earth am I now writing in english then???hahaha hypocriet van mij zeg..ach ja zucht)...The whole memory of retarted Bagels and Beans set me off into memoryland and I only came up with crabs and worms...I looked at my curvy bum and waist and felt happy ..after i deleted the bagels and beans memory...

-My youngest child had severe astma attack..and we didnt had enough medication in the weekend..So monday morning I was racing to the drugstore to get her medication....The lady from the drugstore didnt understood the doctersnote with the medical terms of the prescripted medication...And she was asking for my help..I who had had such troubles in the past with both my docter AND the drugstore in order to get the right medication or the right dose.. (the docters computer had the wrong dosis in the computer which is not helping very sick astma longs to heal)..Was totally angry...And said to the drugstore lady: Ik spreek geen medicijnen,zoek het zelf uit,dat is immers je vak!!/ I dont speak medication..you unravel the mystery yourself cause thats your trade. Within a second she found the right medication....

-Today had coffee,and she who is being watched by ''stillen'' is right!!! I thought at first she was just seeing things...But I saw it too today..Freaky to be followed day and night..and being completely innocent..Again G'RRRRR..My heart goes out to Her.

-I am an atheist who is becoming more and more religious ..More spiritual..I am seeking contact with my guide and realised I already had contact with her..WHen the pope died however there was a tiny cheer gurling up from my throat..Funny is that I have always been highly interested in the Catholic church..I asked my husband how he would feel if I turned into a catholic...He treathens to kill me and run of with the kids ..

-Friends are hard to find..I met such nice mom,with sweet husband and sweet kids..Oldest child is best friend of my oldest kid...She is german ,he is british works in London...Just as we are getting closer and closer they are moving to England to a place near Oxford...Most friends are foreigners and they are always escaping from Holland...GRRRR..

-DO we have to escape from Holland too?? Before the BIG FLOOD is coming?? SOmewhere in Europe..Or do I have to start building space ark?

-I have come to the conclusion that a human hardly ever comes up with an original thought of their own..Yes we have original thoughts but as a group as a nation or as a generation..Due to climate where we live in..Therefor if we run in with someone who is able to produce complete original thoughts that are out of the ordinary we are struck with amazement..Not even considering wether those thoughts are morally right or offensive or just extremely right winged..Just the fact that it seems original works as a drug to most of us...We ''Mass thinking Crowd'' want to catch a ray of genius and never look back to analize those thoughts... Recently I stumbeled upon an original thinker,and it made me aware that another orginal thinker was nothing more then a sly thief.                         The Original Thinker: BOYD RICE makes you look cheap and sleazy. (but very scary guy ..or thoughts or or or nothing)..

-Two weeks ago we bought cheap bread toaster,and now as a family unit were eating aloaf of bread every day..This is just nuts..We have creamy butter and nutella on toasted bread and it is just the best combi..I have gained weight...Not cool..yes shallow me feels more attractive when there is a kg.off...Also just had 75% of tiny Port Salut french cheese,and 50% of chorizo,and 3 toasts...

Amen..Thats it for the update hope it was as nice for you as it was  for me...

Untill next time.....Comicgrl28

Failure 33 Object-john frusciante - shadows collide with people..

Wow..

Mijn ekster Lulu heeft de irritante neiging om nu al de gehele middag met vlijmscherpe snavel mn toetsenbord aan te vallen,of in mn oor te pikken..

2 dagen terug in slaap gevallen,en wordt wakker gemaakt door vogelbeest die met zn snavel aan mn haar loopt te trekken en een gaatje in mn hoofd probeert te boren...

The whole night up,Emma sick with asthma/astma...Huge attack !!! Her astma (dutch spelling) clings on to another virus (cold/etc/etc) and becomes this huge major attack...Unable to sleep,or breath normal..Without the right meds,the inside of a hospital is very real...It is even quite dangerous,because her body is busy fighting ..And doest get enough time to recover..If she didnt had her medication that she is on right now ..so no  lust in drinking,eating,sleeping,walking,playing..just grasping for air...I once read story of parents who lost their son like that...They just didnt knew the kid was going through a huge attack,and in the end he died...

Well according to her docter her astma is no biggie..I think it is because the trigger that causes astma with her isnt:pollen (sorry only dutch) or dust..If it was like that she would allready be spending most of the year in AUstria or Germany on a mountain top filling her lungs with clean,dry air..

She gets sick from :Peanuts (she or her face swells up,and gets a huge attack) and soja...But the strange thing is it can always change later on in to something different like dust...But it can also leave or she is getting bigger and stronger and overcomes it. She gets sick from changes in the weather (before the diagnose she was a walking barometer)..November is a notorious month for dutch patients (our country is so moist,and in that month we really go to different season).And like I mentioned before other virus-es (??)   (picture of her :machine for meds'' I call it the vacuumcleaner that blows, instead of hovering /sucking it all up.)             

But this year we all had one virus after the other..My oldest has this lumb in her neck for weeks..which is just totally freaking me out (I think straight away its cancer or something)...But the docter had her blood checked least week for the:Epstein-Barr Virus-which is the virus that causes Pfeiffer (which is from the same family as Herpes)...I had Pfeiffer,didnt knew it...But looking back I think I had it when I was in my graduation year...Simply because I was sleeping ALL the time (at school;during class,lunchbreakes,at the bus or in the tram,at the sofa,and offcourse at night) it is to this day still a complete mystery: Why I didnt went to a docter AND why i graduated from highschool...

But anyway:Epstein Barr Virus..was just freaking me out,until I read on the internet that most kids are infected with the virus and most adults also have this virus..Why some people then get Pfeiffer is a mystery to me (and perhaps for science)..It is related to Herpes and like Herpes there is no solving drug for it..and like herpes you carry it around with you for the rest of your life...But unlike Herpes..Once you had Pfeiffer you only see the virus in your blood,but one cant ever get sick from it again...Herpes can still be triggered by other causes: Like lack of sleep or shortage of vitamins...Like HIV/AIDS the  Epstein Barr (and perhaps also Herpes) is a virus where science is really really interested in...

Luckily the blood test didnt showed any traces of Epstein-Barr,but it showed traces of another virus...The doc assistent said that it was better if I discussed it face to face with my doc. Which totally FREAKED me out again...so I asked if it was Life threathening and she said :No ...

Hope it is nothing really bad..just like that lumb..

Keep my fingers crossed

cgrl

Grrrrr..I have secret phonenumber and I seem to share that with some dickhead who had the same number for his company,but according to all of the companies that are calling me,the guy went broke/kaput/lost his company, leaving huge soms of money that he still has to pay,but dindt took the time to change that at the local chamber of commerce..so all these legit money sharks are harrasing me on the phone...I just went completely angry,because i was called up for the second time by an ''Incassoburo'' and this arrogant dutch voice automaticly assumes that your telling a lie or something..so she called me back to say that :Yes I was right (no shit)but that his number is still at the chamber of commerce.....I just raised my voice and said that I am completely sick of dealing with other people 's affairs,especially when I dont know them at all,that this wasnt my responsibility,that I have been up all night long with a sick kid,and that I am really getting tired ..up to total anger and that she should solve her own problems....Dutch people are a lot of fun..NOT ...It is nice to hear this arrogant phone voice who thinks that they can handle it all..to hear it lose its grasp on the situation....(Ooh..GOd I dont wanna be all adulty...just want to be the age I always feel like...that of a child..Getting sick of it all)

OK feed my kid some more medication.... it is soo sad to see my kid suffer..I threat her different,and she is aware of it...when she is sick she never has to eat normal food...I just want her to eat something and drink something...So juice and biscuits and fruits...But by the time she gets better she is totally spoiled...normally you have enough time to bend that spioled behaviour in to normal behaviour when it comes to eating patterns...But not when the next attack roars its ugly head....Geez my throat is killing me...I never knew that an infection in your throat is most of the time caused by bacteria which are able to cause incredible scary infections.....Brrr

I needed to get it all out,thank you andrea for writing it all down somewhere...I noticed that I always have been a diary addict..I have this diary from when I was a teenager (it is very shamefull years and years of nothing..lol) and my sketchbooks are soo personal,that besides the doodling and sketches I can never really whip it out and show it...because it is filled with diary fragments

Geesh I am such a virgin..just found out that there are also MP3 blogs where very often you can download free mp3....I found some nice ones allready..some very obscure Rock a Billy :Hasel Adkins...On the link there is also a nice link to a bootleg page...This is just unbelievable...From A-Z free bootlegs..YAYYYYYYY

Gonna re-do my links in the future..Do that more for my self I guess...Because I did nt put this blog into any searchengines..Really wanna keep it private..But when the occasional visitor is on this page..check out (in the future) the new free music download links...

PS The family unit..Or the female part (my 2 daughters and I) are all sharing the same virus..with the nice damp cold moist weahter in Holland,basically means that it is reactivated time after time after time...

I think even that the whole class of my oldest is sharing the same virus,every time I call to say that my kid is sick,I hear that 50% of the class is sick..

Hahaha Uploaded the text /entry only to find out that I forgot the link...Well here it is

http://monkeyfilter.com/link.php/3404

HA..Digging into the huge amounts of mp3 sites...This one is a legit download site from the late John Peel..From Radio Plus!!!

Enjoy

http://www.radio.plus.com/

WHenever I hear NEAT NEAT NEAT (THE DAMNED) I wanna shoot up heroin..

..I wanna smoke Lucky Strikes,light up a new one with the sigaretbutt from the old one.

Have random sex with just about any stranger;with out condoms.

BE in an ever eternal haze,and then getting murdered or just OD on lousy poor smack.

Have catfights with strange girls because there looking at the bloke that I want to score and fuck. (all before I am getting murdered or OD)

 Just want to be in a corner getting high listen to well meant compliments. Aww Sweetie you look just like an auswitch chick. Before turning all veggie on you,and pass out. I am able to smile wonder why the hell it was NEAT NEAT NEAT to fuck a twisted jewish man with a deep hatred towards women.

SHoot up more heroin,sniff poppers, listen to the grinding of teeth next to me on speed...Well at least I am not alone I think,meanwhile mumbling and shrugging or coming down from whatever and in desperate physic need to get high again

Smoke a mountain of hash,eating mushrooms,wondering why the red walls are being covered with little dogs with strange dotty colors

Coming back to earth,waking up.Kids screaming, husband asking when the hell are we gonna have dinner...

ANd if I do the meatballs the way he likes it,perhaps then maybe he has some meatballs for me to eat tonite...

NEAT NEAT NEAT

READ THIS AND BE IN AWE!! (I was..)and then quickly surf to this musicblog and download the track it is unbelievable....

''Joseph Goebbels, Hitler's propaganda minister, assembled a fairly competent swing band called Charlie and His Orchestra to perform Nazified versions of the jazz hits of the day. Led by an English speaking German, Karl Schwendler, Charlie and His Orchestra broadcast on the medium-wave and short-wave bands throughout the 1930s to Canada, the US and Britain. The idea was to lure the masses in with the irrestible tonic of swing music and then slyly work in the anti-Jewish, American and British lyrics after the second or third verse. The broadcasts of Charlie and His Orchestra were not available in the Fatherland proper, but that only enhanced their legend, and they picked up an underground following in Germany as well. '' (quoted from the site..see link)

http://wfmu.org/onthedownload.php